Came across my secondary school blog, recreated by my classmates many years back.
It has not been updated for a couple of years, yet... It still so read-able.
Everyone has grown up, and having their own life.
Some are even married, and are already parents.
Though we rarely meet or chat...
But i still remember all the things we did together.
Nickname we named each others, and the jokes we all shared.
Bad or good.. It all has been the past.
I used to be "meaty".. and i was always been made fun of.
People called me air-pork, sexy pot blah blah...
I admit, i didn't had a good times during my secondary school life as much as other enjoyed.
I was always been look down upon on, just cos of my size.
Thus, i was quiet and kinda of low profile.
Violent at time, to protect myself.
Since then, i never had confident of myself, till now.
I didn't get attention from boys of my age back then.
I was just being too fat to be noticed or to attract anyone.
I was envious of those girls in my class, getting whatever attention they want from boys.
I wish i was like them.
Seriously.
I never had a boyfriend in my secondary school years.
Never.
Too ugly and fat to have one.
Whenever i hear my boyfriend mentioning about how much he enjoyed his secondary life, and how much he hope that he can go back then... I'm kinda of sad. I wish i was like him. He was like a limelight in his school, girls were always attracted to him. He had 3 love stories back then, unlike me. I had nothing. I'm the opposite of him. At times i wonder, if he was thinking back of his exs, or just plainly the basketball life he had back then, that he wanted so much to go back to.
Sigh~
I regret not taking pictures when i was younger, but i don't blame myself for that. I'm just too plain ugly to be photographed.
Now that i managed to find some pictures of me when i was in secondary, i feel kinda of pleased with the present look i having. At least, no one said that i'm fat anymore.
Since then, i've been alil weight caution. I don't wanna be the same old me again.
If i could, i wish i could go back to the past, with the look i having now. Hoping to feel how it is like, to get alil attention from boys.
This are some of the snappies i happened to come across:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/daclassof4e3/4338461/sizes/z/in/photostream/http://www.flickr.com/photos/daclassof4e3/4338414/sizes/z/in/photostream/http://www.flickr.com/photos/daclassof4e3/4338414/sizes/z/in/photostream/http://www.flickr.com/photos/daclassof4e3/4338413/in/photostreamDo try to spot me from those pictures.
And you can see the changes i undergo these past years, and you might know why so many don't even recongise me.
From a 60kg me, to the presently 48kg me...
My life has been like a roller coaster.
I want a peaceful life.
At least for now.
Sugar
